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Sleepless Walks

by A Distorted Utopia

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1.
Awakening 01:32
(Instrumental)
2.
Synapse 04:05
Eyes prised open; mind sewn shut Memories broken; thoughts undone Vital senses; nerves unfeeling Once born human now much more This fetid strain of experimentation Creating a soulless abomination Extremities flayed for science Dissecting human anatomy The charge to cross the synapse Should never have become A chemical imbalance To redefine the species Cross the threshold of anomalies To explore the unknown reaches Of the human design This creature should never dwell Upon god's earth Cease this scientific misadventure Break down thoughts to free failed intentions This demon from a lost dimension Transcends our understanding of existence What is this mockery of our dying breed? An abstract portrayal of genetics reformed What is this being that deforms our nature? And festers in the pits of darkness Does this represent what we are to become? This anathematic nightmare that foreshadows our future Is but a masterpiece in the creators eyes The ancestral perversion Must be severed at the source Eyes prised open; mind sewn shut Memories broken; thoughts undone Vital senses; nerves unfeeling Once born human now much more It feels as we feel; sees as we see It's last thought living A veiled mirage of peace and hope The afterlife betraying nought To a sorrowed sickened monsters eyes
3.
From oceans burning From ancient seas ablaze Come forth mighty leviathan Unrivalled be its wrath Forgotten relic of cycles past Will curse this world anew Their kingdoms burnt, subjects enslaved Their legacy dethroned Awoken from incandescent slumber The inner sanctum of its visage impaired Crowned once as the apex of all worlds The spinal form of sentience Restrained our conscience, and our souls A crippling deformity The gods on high, they sold us out To mechanical creatures, of worlds afar Beyond the realms of fantastical imaginings From oceans burning Of ancient seas ablaze A cryptic race devolved us And threw us in its wake They brand us lesser minded And unleash upon us all This diseased plight To repeat the mistakes of eden They harvest the populace The conversion to abomination Doomed us all from failed beginnings And certain ends From oceans burning Of ancient seas ablaze A cryptic race devolved us To put us in our place The weak forever rising To claim the right of life Yet they slew our 'wishful thinking' And accredit our demise Let us paint a brighter future Free from a misplaced creations reckonings From oceans burning Of ancient seas ablaze A cryptic race devolved us And threw us in its wake From oceans burning Of ancient seas ablaze A cryptic race devolved us To put us in our place
4.
Unguided 07:44
The path laid out ahead A poorly constructed facade Designation to depersonalize Sequences forgotten With which we tie the lines The strands that are left are broken Useless, Wasted Broken, Lost, Forsaken, Forgotten Unguided we find the line Eclipsed inside the beauty Of this idealised mirage The flesh that we inhabit Is flawed in its design The mysteries around us Form the questions in our mind Questionably present in our lives Sick and tired of our dissent We are now a blight An inconsequential specimen In the eyes of carbonic royalty What the fuck are we doing? The foreseen conclusion These trivial endeavours fall to naught The meaningless sentiments Will not grant the grace Callously desired Out of nothing we climb In our search for the skies Shadows lay before us To break us down Forgive us for our ingratitude please Provide us with another lease Broken, Lost, Forsaken, Forgotten Unguided we find the line Eclipsed inside the beauty Of this idealised mirage The flesh in which we live in Is flawed in its design The mysteries around us Form the questions in our mind Lost among the graves Of a celestial riposte Survivors of a genocide It released us To wallow in our pain And guilt Broken, Lost, Forsaken, Forgotten Unguided we find the line Eclipsed inside the beauty Of this idealised mirage The flesh in which we live in Is flawed in its design The mysteries around us Form the questions in our mind To walk the wastes Traverse the lands of death A picture of the conflict Smitten down by gods Broken, Lost, Forsaken, Forgotten Unguided we find the line Eclipsed inside the beauty Of this idealised mirage The flesh in which we live in Is flawed in its design The mysteries around us Form the questions in our mind Lost among the ends Of evolutionary threads
5.
A psychotic misinterpretation of reality Succumbing to translucent nightmares A silent toast to the death of dreaming To scream the nights away But we know better than this These voices call my reason They tell me I can't see their reality But I can feel it's existence There is no darkness in these blinding hallucinations I have not a sadistic heart Yet this stimulation they force-feed me Can never be enough to sate the hunger inside Swept aside as another case Doctor said I'm like the rest These demons in my head, The hatred in my eyes I must exercise this violence Portrayed through imaginings in my mind Before control is relinquished And turned to black before me Lies the eclipsing grasp of my Wavering hold on this dimension Perception askew, a soul ajar I interpret the meanings And design my own derivations These friends of mine in corporeal form Plot with me the impending demise Of those who threaten to 'Make me better' I pray that death will grant me Master of the abstract And there is naught misplaced from the subconscious They can't contain the concept Of the ever-bleeding dreams Spilling over threshold Between the fantasy And the materiality Can't you fucking hear it? It pulses through this world Can't you fucking feel it? I'll beat it through your skull I placed my faith in white coats And told it'll be okay What's that you say? There's no control? Scream louder, bring the saviour I pray you find your peace As I shall embrace mine
6.
They have broken down the barriers Of space and time I have conjured this hypnotic dream state To alleviate the suffering I burnt these bridges To reconcile the mental stance Empty thoughts meld into nothing Amnesiac for convenience These captured memories Hold nothing of a fractured past A ruptured glimpse into the depths Of overwhelming tragedy An ocean of disease Burns within the mind's eye The connections remain torn The truth lays lost and forgotten Weakened from the closing act Strength ebbs from body of form Impatient for a revelation The reincarnation of archaic depictions. Dissolution of the form Deviate from paths adrift Dissolution of the form The mind matters not Break free of these proverbial restraints Before they summon remembrance The crime which lays concealed In my catatonic state Automated, Indoctrinated Poisonous thoughts infest me And burns the discordance away My secret remains veiled Behind a psychotic faceless mask Behind lock and key I stash away The blueprints to this task Dissolution of the form Deviate from paths adrift Dissolution of the form The mind matters not Break free of these proverbial restraints Before they summon remembrance The crime which lays concealed In my catatonic state The knives lacerate the flesh Yet fail to breach the citadel of the mind The fortress remains barred and guarded They will not storm the gates They will not storm the gates They will not storm the gates They will not storm the gates
7.
Claim this realm henceforce as haven Free from the prying eyes of ravens Distrust of the hallowed earth provided To seek salvation within Parade through the ghost town The spirits cling still Weakened exalted Consumed in the thrill Refuge in darkness The corners concealed The veil is lifted And wholeness revealed Scour the abyssal vectors, Reach forth from the depths The shrouded beauty, the seasoned horror Lays beyond the silver shadows, of clouded resilience Then birthed unto enlightened plains Parade through the ghost town The spirits cling still Weakened exalted Consumed in the thrill Refuge in darkness The corners concealed The veil is lifted And wholeness revealed The wraiths of torment Dissolve to an ocean of tranquillity The banshee's cry soothes only the mind And lays sick fantasies to rest In the halls of a higher power The consciousness resides To find life amongst embers And salvation from decay A higher plain for all to reach To bend from insane branches Bound to break No consul of the madness Clairvoyance summon none Convalescent dreaming In the waking of a gun Go! It is not considered uncommon To find peace of heart in dreams Much less so to find sought haven In wickedness inclined The black sheep of the flock In meditative state Alone in a blackened refuge To wilt among one's demons And whither in the shade Of lingering spectre's grasp A temple of spirit and solace of mind A solitary sentence to cleanse And eviscerate the edges Of sanctuary's keep And withhold the notion Of sanity's sleep Parade through the ghost town The spirits cling still Weakened exalted Consumed in the thrill Refuge in darkness The corners concealed The veil is lifted And wholeness revealed
8.
They say the mind thrives in the absence of life And clings with flailing movements to the edges of reality Nostrils can no longer sense the decomposition Of the residual remaining flesh No life behind the whites of the eyes And yet the cogs keep turning The brain keeps whirring The heart no longer yearning The fear inside is burning For the limbo state to cease The mind lives on in self-aware agony Envisage life ebbing away Path carved for the maggots conquest Devour the flesh to nothing Feeding on that which you cling to A withered shell, a rotting husk Yet the mind lives on In a perpetual state of ensuing madness To come to terms with the forms fragility A weakened growth Life shut down with coffin nails Lungs fit to burst with soil Stomach unleashed upon this earth Fertilise this world anew Who knew of this closing call? This godless eternity? This parade of ravenous creatures Feed on the death's provided carcass The cadaver cannot withstand the aging torment The soul crawls on untouched unharmed No life behind the whites of the eyes And yet the cogs keep turning The brain keeps whirring The heart no longer yearning The fear inside is burning For the limbo state to cease The mind lives on in self-aware agony Envisage life ebbing away Condemned for the rest of time To gaze upon the casket lid Until the brain wilts and fades away No revelation could bring preparation for this unseen close There is no philosophical backdrop There is no salvation in afterlife Oh lord and master grant forgiveness From this forsaken pitfall The thoughts of loved ones fade away With the physical form of the conscious Dissociated from reality Of the decaying soul enclosed Cannot breathe the dust and ash The vitals no longer function The transcendental process is a living hell Corporeally dissonant from this worldly plain Left to watch the flesh rotting away To feel no pain yet view the agonising torture Path carved for the maggots conquest Devour the flesh to nothing Feeding on that which you cling to A withered shell, a rotting husk Yet the mind lives on In a perpetual state of ensuing madness To come to terms with the forms fragility A parasitic deformation This flesh has become a tomb The skeleton is now a jail cell Captured within a fractured body To wilt and deflesh among ones fluids Death would bring relief to a broken form Bring peace to purgatory To make the next step towards rebirth To close down the sight once and for all No life behind the whites of the eyes And yet the cogs keep turning The brain keeps whirring The heart no longer yearning The fear inside is burning For the limbo state to cease The mind lives on in self-aware agony Envisage life bleeding away Path carved for the maggots conquest Devour the flesh to nothing Feeding on that which you cling to A withered shell, a rotting husk Yet the mind lives on In a perpetual state of ensuing madness To come to terms with the forms fragility A parasitic deformation
9.
Should I believe these declarations of my clinical insanity? Gagged and bound with their sterile tape They cannot process my motivation, when will they ever think? That my purpose serves theirs and theirs mine Weakened and Lost Trapped in my web they cry Out for their homes For weeping old mothers Rabid I lust For sweet tender sickness Trapped under their skin Released by my doings The perfect murder I shall commit To plague the minds of scientists For decades to come When the bones are all that's left Until then my innocence retained I willingly indulge in this existential exercise I find these lies appealing, I find these thoughts deceiving I find these shallow graves arousing and the corpse that lays within To exploit their fragile beings fraught I have a greater purpose Know only unto me Enlightened I am I have a darker secret Tucked away Know only unto us A couples devilish intent revealed The lust in conquest We ride the anguish and thrive in death There is no foundation For this paranoia they claim I wilt away in darkness A slave to schizophrenic thoughts I stonewall these ideals As the romanticized killer that I am I am the monster they claim me to be Unleashed upon the would now would I only kill again? This was my perfect murder Oh so elegantly planned Laid forth in historical notoriety Forevermore unsanctioned A final wish to be disposed Upon unconsecrated ground They'll never get over us These long years pass In catatonic isolation She's long gone now I pray she meets me at the gates of Janus I no longer identify with the human machine These remorseful antics betray me Unto the captors lair These pills, they cannot reach me My efforts of suicide are failures Haunting me Let me be, let me die 'I pray I leave this cesspit in a coffin'
10.
In this deserted land of wilted dreams and poisoned thoughts Unto the gates of questions yearned and answers sought I try to grasp The vines of pitchless torment reaching down from balustrades above Ascension granted by a means discovered between the lines of prescribed Serenity and in this hope I find the lies of sentience past Weakened by the climb to find the end of the path I was forced to walk By unseen hands inside my head that twist the thoughts to suit their own designs A flash of light behind the eyes and reality returns to reinforce The servitude of spirit and soul to demons of the earth Hands clasp tight to the tears and folds the anchor me to one dimension Breathing; for sake of sense Dividing; the line between The visions in the static of Mentality collapse Inside the wounds that draw me nearer to the cracks in time I find that in the absence of a mind there is calling sign Inside the fear that calls a name it repeats forever it's the same To feed the blaze and start again but with a different face To claim the innocence of dissonance from that which steals the soul To trap it in a looking glass to view only what it cannot have And seal away the damaged intellect so it can do no harm Broken by tribulations thrust upon the carcass void Lynched above the aging dregs of empty wretched carapace design Inside the wounds that draw me nearer to the cracks in time I find that in the absence of a mind there is calling sign Inside the fear that calls a name it repeats forever it's the same To feed the blaze and start again but with a different face Across of the fjords of aegis foul into the blackened depths I pass Into the welcomed arms of something that I cannot identify Inside the rivers of the heart lies something that I cannot find Through bleeding sores in corners of the earth the mystery resolves Ebbing streams of unknown source trail Athwart the passage stretched anon Across this bridge I must traverse To undo this spiteful curse Searching for the antidote has brought nothing but regret and suffering The guilt constrained within the deeds committed Close lids upon the eyes of mortals Unaware of the actions perceived Brought down by short sighted insolence But no malicious intent Fuck the monsters at the gates Syringe prepared subject restrained It's already too late for this Where were you in the halls of anxiety? Mistakes were made Lost in the thralls of psychosis rage To cast oneself from the tallest tower Is it considered waste? Or blessed sanctuary? Deliverance from wicked boughs Withered by the repentant march Of chemical trauma and broken synapse Cerebral stem malfunction imminent Fuck the system that casts the weak Out into the wastes of misery and pain The dreams of many far outweigh the few Cleanse the surface fabric I need to be reanimated Vivacious disease revolves Around the chosen sons Inside the wounds that draw me nearer to the cracks in time I find that in the absence of a mind there is calling sign Inside the fear that calls a name it repeats forever it's the same To feed the blaze and start again but with a different face Across of the fjords of aegis foul into the blackened depths I pass Into the welcomed arms of something that I cannot identify Inside the rivers of the heart lies something that I cannot find Through bleeding sores in corners of the earth the mystery resolves Infest the wounds that screech and sin erase the walls to fade away Bend the chains that hold me closer to the edge of it Failure to adapt to worlds long gone on to the paths ahead and Flee from the ones it left behind to scour the edges of the earth For new beginnings in another time, another place To revel in the mysteries of life itself and wonder why and How it came to this, where did it go wrong? Solve the answer to the question that is posed before us

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SLEEPLESS WALKS is the debut album by one man UK based death metal project A DISTORTED UTOPIA.

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released June 26, 2016

A Distorted Utopia is
Richard Allsopp: Guitars, Bass, Vocals and Drum programming

All songs written, composed and performed by Richard Allsopp

All lyrics by Richard Allsopp

Recorded, Engineered and Produced by Richard Allsopp

Artwork and Logo by Thomas Allsopp

Sleepless Walks was written between July 2013 and August 2015, recorded between September 2015 and March 2016

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A solo melodic death metal project from the UK

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