Sleepless Walks

by A Distorted Utopia

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SLEEPLESS WALKS is the debut album by one man UK based death metal project A DISTORTED UTOPIA.

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released June 26, 2016

A Distorted Utopia is
Richard Allsopp: Guitars, Bass, Vocals and Drum programming

All songs written, composed and performed by Richard Allsopp

All lyrics by Richard Allsopp

Recorded, Engineered and Produced by Richard Allsopp

Artwork and Logo by Thomas Allsopp

Sleepless Walks was written between July 2013 and August 2015, recorded between September 2015 and March 2016

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A Distorted Utopia Leicester, UK

A solo melodic death metal project from the UK

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Track Name: Awakening
(Instrumental)
Track Name: Synapse
Eyes prised open; mind sewn shut
Memories broken; thoughts undone
Vital senses; nerves unfeeling
Once born human now much more

This fetid strain of experimentation
Creating a soulless abomination
Extremities flayed for science
Dissecting human anatomy
The charge to cross the synapse
Should never have become
A chemical imbalance
To redefine the species

Cross the threshold of anomalies
To explore the unknown reaches
Of the human design
This creature should never dwell
Upon god's earth
Cease this scientific misadventure
Break down thoughts to free failed intentions
This demon from a lost dimension
Transcends our understanding of existence

What is this mockery of our dying breed?
An abstract portrayal of genetics reformed
What is this being that deforms our nature?
And festers in the pits of darkness
Does this represent what we are to become?

This anathematic nightmare that foreshadows our future
Is but a masterpiece in the creators eyes
The ancestral perversion
Must be severed at the source

Eyes prised open; mind sewn shut
Memories broken; thoughts undone
Vital senses; nerves unfeeling
Once born human now much more

It feels as we feel; sees as we see
It's last thought living
A veiled mirage of peace and hope
The afterlife betraying nought
To a sorrowed sickened monsters eyes
Track Name: Of Oceans Ablaze
From oceans burning
From ancient seas ablaze
Come forth mighty leviathan
Unrivalled be its wrath
Forgotten relic of cycles past
Will curse this world anew
Their kingdoms burnt, subjects enslaved
Their legacy dethroned

Awoken from incandescent slumber
The inner sanctum of its visage impaired

Crowned once as the apex of all worlds
The spinal form of sentience
Restrained our conscience, and our souls
A crippling deformity
The gods on high, they sold us out
To mechanical creatures, of worlds afar
Beyond the realms of fantastical imaginings

From oceans burning
Of ancient seas ablaze
A cryptic race devolved us
And threw us in its wake

They brand us lesser minded
And unleash upon us all
This diseased plight
To repeat the mistakes of eden
They harvest the populace
The conversion to abomination
Doomed us all from failed beginnings
And certain ends

From oceans burning
Of ancient seas ablaze
A cryptic race devolved us
To put us in our place

The weak forever rising
To claim the right of life
Yet they slew our 'wishful thinking'
And accredit our demise
Let us paint a brighter future
Free from a misplaced creations reckonings

From oceans burning
Of ancient seas ablaze
A cryptic race devolved us
And threw us in its wake
From oceans burning
Of ancient seas ablaze
A cryptic race devolved us
To put us in our place
Track Name: Unguided
The path laid out ahead
A poorly constructed facade
Designation to depersonalize

Sequences forgotten
With which we tie the lines
The strands that are left are broken
Useless, Wasted

Broken, Lost, Forsaken, Forgotten
Unguided we find the line
Eclipsed inside the beauty
Of this idealised mirage
The flesh that we inhabit
Is flawed in its design
The mysteries around us
Form the questions in our mind

Questionably present in our lives
Sick and tired of our dissent
We are now a blight
An inconsequential specimen
In the eyes of carbonic royalty
What the fuck are we doing?

The foreseen conclusion
These trivial endeavours fall to naught
The meaningless sentiments
Will not grant the grace
Callously desired
Out of nothing we climb
In our search for the skies
Shadows lay before us
To break us down

Forgive us for our ingratitude please
Provide us with another lease

Broken, Lost, Forsaken, Forgotten
Unguided we find the line
Eclipsed inside the beauty
Of this idealised mirage
The flesh in which we live in
Is flawed in its design
The mysteries around us
Form the questions in our mind

Lost among the graves
Of a celestial riposte

Survivors of a genocide
It released us
To wallow in our pain
And guilt

Broken, Lost, Forsaken, Forgotten
Unguided we find the line
Eclipsed inside the beauty
Of this idealised mirage
The flesh in which we live in
Is flawed in its design
The mysteries around us
Form the questions in our mind

To walk the wastes
Traverse the lands of death
A picture of the conflict
Smitten down by gods

Broken, Lost, Forsaken, Forgotten
Unguided we find the line
Eclipsed inside the beauty
Of this idealised mirage
The flesh in which we live in
Is flawed in its design
The mysteries around us
Form the questions in our mind

Lost among the ends
Of evolutionary threads
Track Name: The Dead and the Dreaming
A psychotic misinterpretation of reality
Succumbing to translucent nightmares
A silent toast to the death of dreaming
To scream the nights away

But we know better than this
These voices call my reason
They tell me I can't see their reality
But I can feel it's existence

There is no darkness in these blinding hallucinations
I have not a sadistic heart
Yet this stimulation they force-feed me
Can never be enough to sate the hunger inside

Swept aside as another case
Doctor said I'm like the rest
These demons in my head,
The hatred in my eyes
I must exercise this violence
Portrayed through imaginings in my mind
Before control is relinquished
And turned to black before me
Lies the eclipsing grasp of my
Wavering hold on this dimension

Perception askew, a soul ajar
I interpret the meanings
And design my own derivations
These friends of mine in corporeal form
Plot with me the impending demise
Of those who threaten to 'Make me better'

I pray that death will grant me
Master of the abstract
And there is naught misplaced from the subconscious
They can't contain the concept
Of the ever-bleeding dreams
Spilling over threshold
Between the fantasy
And the materiality

Can't you fucking hear it?
It pulses through this world
Can't you fucking feel it?
I'll beat it through your skull
I placed my faith in white coats
And told it'll be okay
What's that you say?
There's no control?
Scream louder, bring the saviour
I pray you find your peace
As I shall embrace mine
Track Name: Dissolution of Form
They have broken down the barriers
Of space and time
I have conjured this hypnotic dream state
To alleviate the suffering
I burnt these bridges
To reconcile the mental stance
Empty thoughts meld into nothing
Amnesiac for convenience

These captured memories
Hold nothing of a fractured past
A ruptured glimpse into the depths
Of overwhelming tragedy
An ocean of disease
Burns within the mind's eye
The connections remain torn
The truth lays lost and forgotten

Weakened from the closing act
Strength ebbs from body of form
Impatient for a revelation
The reincarnation of archaic depictions.

Dissolution of the form
Deviate from paths adrift
Dissolution of the form
The mind matters not
Break free of these proverbial restraints
Before they summon remembrance
The crime which lays concealed
In my catatonic state

Automated, Indoctrinated
Poisonous thoughts infest me
And burns the discordance away
My secret remains veiled
Behind a psychotic faceless mask
Behind lock and key I stash away
The blueprints to this task

Dissolution of the form
Deviate from paths adrift
Dissolution of the form
The mind matters not
Break free of these proverbial restraints
Before they summon remembrance
The crime which lays concealed
In my catatonic state

The knives lacerate the flesh
Yet fail to breach the citadel of the mind
The fortress remains barred and guarded
They will not storm the gates
They will not storm the gates
They will not storm the gates
They will not storm the gates
Track Name: Insanitus Custodia
Claim this realm henceforce as haven
Free from the prying eyes of ravens
Distrust of the hallowed earth provided
To seek salvation within

Parade through the ghost town
The spirits cling still
Weakened exalted
Consumed in the thrill
Refuge in darkness
The corners concealed
The veil is lifted
And wholeness revealed

Scour the abyssal vectors, Reach forth from the depths
The shrouded beauty, the seasoned horror
Lays beyond the silver shadows, of clouded resilience
Then birthed unto enlightened plains

Parade through the ghost town
The spirits cling still
Weakened exalted
Consumed in the thrill
Refuge in darkness
The corners concealed
The veil is lifted
And wholeness revealed
The wraiths of torment
Dissolve to an ocean of tranquillity
The banshee's cry soothes only the mind
And lays sick fantasies to rest
In the halls of a higher power
The consciousness resides
To find life amongst embers
And salvation from decay

A higher plain for all to reach
To bend from insane branches
Bound to break
No consul of the madness
Clairvoyance summon none
Convalescent dreaming
In the waking of a gun

Go!

It is not considered uncommon
To find peace of heart in dreams
Much less so to find sought haven
In wickedness inclined
The black sheep of the flock
In meditative state

Alone in a blackened refuge
To wilt among one's demons
And whither in the shade
Of lingering spectre's grasp

A temple of spirit and solace of mind
A solitary sentence to cleanse
And eviscerate the edges
Of sanctuary's keep
And withhold the notion
Of sanity's sleep

Parade through the ghost town
The spirits cling still
Weakened exalted
Consumed in the thrill
Refuge in darkness
The corners concealed
The veil is lifted
And wholeness revealed
Track Name: Corporeal Dissonance
They say the mind thrives in the absence of life
And clings with flailing movements to the edges of reality
Nostrils can no longer sense the decomposition
Of the residual remaining flesh

No life behind the whites of the eyes
And yet the cogs keep turning
The brain keeps whirring
The heart no longer yearning
The fear inside is burning
For the limbo state to cease
The mind lives on in self-aware agony
Envisage life ebbing away

Path carved for the maggots conquest
Devour the flesh to nothing
Feeding on that which you cling to
A withered shell, a rotting husk
Yet the mind lives on
In a perpetual state of ensuing madness
To come to terms with the forms fragility
A weakened growth

Life shut down with coffin nails
Lungs fit to burst with soil
Stomach unleashed upon this earth
Fertilise this world anew
Who knew of this closing call?
This godless eternity?
This parade of ravenous creatures
Feed on the death's provided carcass

The cadaver cannot withstand the aging torment
The soul crawls on untouched unharmed

No life behind the whites of the eyes
And yet the cogs keep turning
The brain keeps whirring
The heart no longer yearning
The fear inside is burning
For the limbo state to cease
The mind lives on in self-aware agony
Envisage life ebbing away

Condemned for the rest of time
To gaze upon the casket lid
Until the brain wilts and fades away

No revelation could bring preparation for this unseen close

There is no philosophical backdrop
There is no salvation in afterlife
Oh lord and master grant forgiveness
From this forsaken pitfall

The thoughts of loved ones fade away
With the physical form of the conscious
Dissociated from reality
Of the decaying soul enclosed

Cannot breathe the dust and ash
The vitals no longer function
The transcendental process is a living hell
Corporeally dissonant from this worldly plain
Left to watch the flesh rotting away
To feel no pain yet view the agonising torture

Path carved for the maggots conquest
Devour the flesh to nothing
Feeding on that which you cling to
A withered shell, a rotting husk
Yet the mind lives on
In a perpetual state of ensuing madness
To come to terms with the forms fragility
A parasitic deformation

This flesh has become a tomb
The skeleton is now a jail cell
Captured within a fractured body
To wilt and deflesh among ones fluids
Death would bring relief to a broken form
Bring peace to purgatory
To make the next step towards rebirth
To close down the sight once and for all

No life behind the whites of the eyes
And yet the cogs keep turning
The brain keeps whirring
The heart no longer yearning
The fear inside is burning
For the limbo state to cease
The mind lives on in self-aware agony
Envisage life bleeding away

Path carved for the maggots conquest
Devour the flesh to nothing
Feeding on that which you cling to
A withered shell, a rotting husk
Yet the mind lives on
In a perpetual state of ensuing madness
To come to terms with the forms fragility
A parasitic deformation
Track Name: An Existential Experience
Should I believe these declarations of my clinical insanity?
Gagged and bound with their sterile tape
They cannot process my motivation, when will they ever think?
That my purpose serves theirs and theirs mine

Weakened and Lost
Trapped in my web they cry
Out for their homes
For weeping old mothers
Rabid I lust
For sweet tender sickness
Trapped under their skin
Released by my doings
The perfect murder I shall commit
To plague the minds of scientists
For decades to come
When the bones are all that's left
Until then my innocence retained

I willingly indulge in this existential exercise
I find these lies appealing, I find these thoughts deceiving
I find these shallow graves arousing and the corpse that lays within
To exploit their fragile beings fraught

I have a greater purpose
Know only unto me
Enlightened I am
I have a darker secret
Tucked away
Know only unto us

A couples devilish intent revealed
The lust in conquest
We ride the anguish and thrive in death

There is no foundation
For this paranoia they claim
I wilt away in darkness
A slave to schizophrenic thoughts
I stonewall these ideals
As the romanticized killer that I am
I am the monster they claim me to be
Unleashed upon the would now would I only kill again?

This was my perfect murder
Oh so elegantly planned
Laid forth in historical notoriety
Forevermore unsanctioned
A final wish to be disposed
Upon unconsecrated ground
They'll never get over us

These long years pass In catatonic isolation
She's long gone now I pray she meets me at the gates of Janus
I no longer identify with the human machine
These remorseful antics betray me

Unto the captors lair
These pills, they cannot reach me
My efforts of suicide are failures
Haunting me
Let me be, let me die
'I pray I leave this cesspit in a coffin'
Track Name: Silence in the Nightmares
In this deserted land of wilted dreams and poisoned thoughts
Unto the gates of questions yearned and answers sought I try to grasp
The vines of pitchless torment reaching down from balustrades above
Ascension granted by a means discovered between the lines of prescribed
Serenity and in this hope I find the lies of sentience past

Weakened by the climb to find the end of the path I was forced to walk
By unseen hands inside my head that twist the thoughts to suit their own designs
A flash of light behind the eyes and reality returns to reinforce
The servitude of spirit and soul to demons of the earth
Hands clasp tight to the tears and folds the anchor me to one dimension

Breathing; for sake of sense
Dividing; the line between
The visions in the static of
Mentality collapse

Inside the wounds that draw me nearer to the cracks in time
I find that in the absence of a mind there is calling sign
Inside the fear that calls a name it repeats forever it's the same
To feed the blaze and start again but with a different face

To claim the innocence of dissonance from that which steals the soul
To trap it in a looking glass to view only what it cannot have
And seal away the damaged intellect so it can do no harm
Broken by tribulations thrust upon the carcass void
Lynched above the aging dregs of empty wretched carapace design

Inside the wounds that draw me nearer to the cracks in time
I find that in the absence of a mind there is calling sign
Inside the fear that calls a name it repeats forever it's the same
To feed the blaze and start again but with a different face
Across of the fjords of aegis foul into the blackened depths I pass
Into the welcomed arms of something that I cannot identify
Inside the rivers of the heart lies something that I cannot find
Through bleeding sores in corners of the earth the mystery resolves

Ebbing streams of unknown source trail
Athwart the passage stretched anon
Across this bridge I must traverse
To undo this spiteful curse

Searching for the antidote has brought nothing but regret and suffering
The guilt constrained within the deeds committed
Close lids upon the eyes of mortals
Unaware of the actions perceived
Brought down by short sighted insolence
But no malicious intent

Fuck the monsters at the gates
Syringe prepared subject restrained
It's already too late for this
Where were you in the halls of anxiety?
Mistakes were made

Lost in the thralls of psychosis rage
To cast oneself from the tallest tower
Is it considered waste?
Or blessed sanctuary?

Deliverance from wicked boughs
Withered by the repentant march
Of chemical trauma and broken synapse
Cerebral stem malfunction imminent

Fuck the system that casts the weak
Out into the wastes of misery and pain
The dreams of many far outweigh the few

Cleanse the surface fabric
I need to be reanimated
Vivacious disease revolves
Around the chosen sons

Inside the wounds that draw me nearer to the cracks in time
I find that in the absence of a mind there is calling sign
Inside the fear that calls a name it repeats forever it's the same
To feed the blaze and start again but with a different face
Across of the fjords of aegis foul into the blackened depths I pass
Into the welcomed arms of something that I cannot identify
Inside the rivers of the heart lies something that I cannot find
Through bleeding sores in corners of the earth the mystery resolves

Infest the wounds that screech and sin erase the walls to fade away
Bend the chains that hold me closer to the edge of it
Failure to adapt to worlds long gone on to the paths ahead and
Flee from the ones it left behind to scour the edges of the earth
For new beginnings in another time, another place
To revel in the mysteries of life itself and wonder why and
How it came to this, where did it go wrong?
Solve the answer to the question that is posed before us